YES! Today I went in for my baseline ultrasound to look at my uterus and to do our AFC(counting how many follicles I had).
Firstly, I love this fertility center. It is so quiet, peaceful and comforting. It is completely designed for couples just like us. Children are not allowed in the building which for those of you who struggle with infertility you know how hard it is to sit in a waiting room staring at other babies and kids while you struggle and wait for your own. The atmosphere is more like being in a spa than in a doctors office!
I got my blood drawn. They did LH, FSH , and Estradiol. Plus they did a whole CBC panel.
Follicle Count Time:
The nurse said my uterus looked great and there were no cysts etc!
*My right ovary had between 6-10 follicles.
*My left ovary showed 15+( she stopped counting after 15). My left ovary is apparently much bigger than my right :)
Just a few minutes ago I received a message to check my patient portal online. ( I love this because it lists all my appointments, messages, lab results and consents. I really appreciate organization and finding out results quickly!) My lab results were posted and all my levels came back good!
I had a message saying to start my birth control pills today!!!!
I go for a mini lesson on injections tomorrow and find out my dosages etc. I will take.
I start injections February 1st!
My hope has been renewed. Believing this will work!
"I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him" 1 Samuel 1:27–28
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Consultation for IVF # 2
I feel like I need to back a few steps up and explain how our consultation went and what we decided for our second cycle.
On January 14th Roger and I went in and met Dr. Morris for the first time. I have read great things about him and seen his very high success rates so I was feeling OK about giving this all a go again because we had a new doctor.
Dr. Morris got right down to it and started to tell me what he would do differently, how my protocol would be almost polar opposite to my first IVF and how he was confident we would get more than 1 normal embryo after the PGD testing.
As we listened to him and he showed us visuals as well as studies with cases very similar to ours we both began to feel more at ease. When I had the chance and he asked what questions I had I spilled out all the questions I have had since last July when our IVF failed.
Dr. Morris see's others with balanced translocation 1-2 a month over other specialists who see it once or twice a year...this is a HUGE difference and very important to me. Dr. Morris tests day 5 embyros then freezes them immediately after if they are normal and tested as balanced.This means, after my retrieval I will know withen a week how many came back normal and how many are freezing for our next month cycle.
This cycle will be different in that I will NOT have a 5 day transfer. I will have my retrieval , recover from my huge ovaries then get my period again. Once my period comes I will start Lupron for a few weeks then we will transfer our healthy embyros!!!! I will have a less "hostile" environment as Dr. Morris put it because I wont be coming down from all of the injections and hormones.
This was all very good news. We left feeling confident and hopeful to soon have a positive pregnancy test, hearing the heartbeat for the first time and watching my bump grow bigger every week :)
On January 14th Roger and I went in and met Dr. Morris for the first time. I have read great things about him and seen his very high success rates so I was feeling OK about giving this all a go again because we had a new doctor.
Dr. Morris got right down to it and started to tell me what he would do differently, how my protocol would be almost polar opposite to my first IVF and how he was confident we would get more than 1 normal embryo after the PGD testing.
As we listened to him and he showed us visuals as well as studies with cases very similar to ours we both began to feel more at ease. When I had the chance and he asked what questions I had I spilled out all the questions I have had since last July when our IVF failed.
Dr. Morris see's others with balanced translocation 1-2 a month over other specialists who see it once or twice a year...this is a HUGE difference and very important to me. Dr. Morris tests day 5 embyros then freezes them immediately after if they are normal and tested as balanced.This means, after my retrieval I will know withen a week how many came back normal and how many are freezing for our next month cycle.
This cycle will be different in that I will NOT have a 5 day transfer. I will have my retrieval , recover from my huge ovaries then get my period again. Once my period comes I will start Lupron for a few weeks then we will transfer our healthy embyros!!!! I will have a less "hostile" environment as Dr. Morris put it because I wont be coming down from all of the injections and hormones.
This was all very good news. We left feeling confident and hopeful to soon have a positive pregnancy test, hearing the heartbeat for the first time and watching my bump grow bigger every week :)
Friday, December 27, 2013
The IVF Wait Continues
Hello All,
It has been a few weeks due to the holidays and because honestly I have not had much to report or talk about.
Our insurance took affect on December 1st so naturally I had an appointment for December 2nd and 4th to get things moving. We have BCBS HMO which requires a referral for infertility care. This is literally still what is holding us up from starting our cycle. Finally today I printed records myself and drove them to the doctor to personally hand off and get them moving. Can you say frustrating?
I am not the most patient person especially when it comes to waiting on doctors. We have not had the most positive experiences anywhere we have gone through this whole 4 year journey. I am hoping that we really like Dr. Morris once we finally get to see him!
Our schedule now is as follows:
Get referral acceptance
Have consult with Dr. Morris( hopefully next week)
Start cycle mid-late January
Get pregnant
Sounds easy when I write out, hopefully this is the case.
More when I have some exciting updates :)
It has been a few weeks due to the holidays and because honestly I have not had much to report or talk about.
Our insurance took affect on December 1st so naturally I had an appointment for December 2nd and 4th to get things moving. We have BCBS HMO which requires a referral for infertility care. This is literally still what is holding us up from starting our cycle. Finally today I printed records myself and drove them to the doctor to personally hand off and get them moving. Can you say frustrating?
I am not the most patient person especially when it comes to waiting on doctors. We have not had the most positive experiences anywhere we have gone through this whole 4 year journey. I am hoping that we really like Dr. Morris once we finally get to see him!
Our schedule now is as follows:
Get referral acceptance
Have consult with Dr. Morris( hopefully next week)
Start cycle mid-late January
Get pregnant
Sounds easy when I write out, hopefully this is the case.
More when I have some exciting updates :)
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Healthy Snacks and Treats To Curb Your Sweet Tooth
Good Morning!! I thought I would share some snacks and ideas that I make and eat to curb my sweet tooth. It is important for everyone to eat healthy, limit sugar, limit processed foods and keep salt on the minimum. When trying to conceive or going through IVF our stress goes up and our emotions run high. Try to continue healthy eating and wise decisions at the grocery store. Below I am sharing some healthy snacks and treats, I will post more in the future as I invent and perfect recipes!
Banana Ice Cream :
Ingredients
*1 large Banana
* Tablespoon of Milk ( Almond Milk would work as well)
* Tablespoon of Peanut Butter
1.) Slice banana into several pieces and put into plastic ziplock
2.) Place in freezer for 2-3 hours
3.) Put frozen banana slices into blender, add milk and blend on low or medium until smooth
4.) Scoop into bowl and top with a Tbsp of Peanut Butter
5.) Enjoy :)
Medjool Dates with Coconut shavings
* These I purchase from Whole Foods in the bulk section. They are cheap and are sweet but natural. No added sugar but they satisfy your craving for a candy bar. You could easily make them at home by mashing up the dates and rolling them in coconut shavings, I just save the time and buy.
If your like me especially during stressful time you want to grab a candy bar or shove a handful of M&M's into your mouth when no one is looking ( both things I have done several times). Making healthy choices a habit instead of a trend is the way to go.
Fruits and Veggies
Below is a picture of my Whole Foods produce picks. I use them to make fruit plates, smoothies, snacks and as part of my breakfast. My picks today were green apples, carrots, pears, yams( for sweet potato fries), kiwi, lemons and spinach!
When trying to get pregnant or prepare for IVF it is so important to eat a lot of fresh, healthy, non processed foods filled with vitamins and nutritious ingredients. I have found that if I make my fruit plates pretty it is more enjoyable and feels like a treat not something I have to force down my throat to be healthy!
***If you have not tried my green smoothie from my previous post , you should! Let me know how you like it and how great you feel after drinking it!!!
More snacks to share later!
Have a great day and stay positive and hopeful. Everyday is a new day full of possibilities :)
Banana Ice Cream :
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| Banana Ice Cream |
Ingredients
*1 large Banana
* Tablespoon of Milk ( Almond Milk would work as well)
* Tablespoon of Peanut Butter
1.) Slice banana into several pieces and put into plastic ziplock
2.) Place in freezer for 2-3 hours
3.) Put frozen banana slices into blender, add milk and blend on low or medium until smooth
4.) Scoop into bowl and top with a Tbsp of Peanut Butter
5.) Enjoy :)
Medjool Dates with Coconut shavings
* These I purchase from Whole Foods in the bulk section. They are cheap and are sweet but natural. No added sugar but they satisfy your craving for a candy bar. You could easily make them at home by mashing up the dates and rolling them in coconut shavings, I just save the time and buy.
If your like me especially during stressful time you want to grab a candy bar or shove a handful of M&M's into your mouth when no one is looking ( both things I have done several times). Making healthy choices a habit instead of a trend is the way to go.
Fruits and Veggies
Below is a picture of my Whole Foods produce picks. I use them to make fruit plates, smoothies, snacks and as part of my breakfast. My picks today were green apples, carrots, pears, yams( for sweet potato fries), kiwi, lemons and spinach!
When trying to get pregnant or prepare for IVF it is so important to eat a lot of fresh, healthy, non processed foods filled with vitamins and nutritious ingredients. I have found that if I make my fruit plates pretty it is more enjoyable and feels like a treat not something I have to force down my throat to be healthy!
***If you have not tried my green smoothie from my previous post , you should! Let me know how you like it and how great you feel after drinking it!!!
More snacks to share later!
Have a great day and stay positive and hopeful. Everyday is a new day full of possibilities :)
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Preparing For IVF-Physically, Mentally and Emotionally
Like many women I have been researching what types of vitamins, supplements, foods and beverages are healthy and crucial before diving into pregnancy or in our case IVF. I get asked what types of things I have taken and what I recommend...so here goes!
I highly recommend a prenatal vitamin every day with food. Along with my prenatal vitamin I take a 400mg pill of Folic Acid. Last time I had my levels checked they said I had a superb amount to conceive and carry a baby, so that is why I am so keen on Folic Acid. Folic Acid is also extremely important for the babies growth and development and something so simple can prevent issues such as Spinabifida.
Royal Jelly is my new friend in a jar. Pictured below Royal Jelly is basically what the queen bee eats and uses to create thousands of healthy eggs every day. It is a superfood complex and in my research seems to be beneficial in the pre stages of IVF and or conception. I take one teaspoon every day followed by a big glass of water( it tastes awful to me).
Drinking plenty of water is critical for anyone on any given day. Drinking water is a natural cleanser and also very important during the stimming stage and beyond with IVF. You should drink at least half your body weight in ounces every day. While I was going through our first IVF I would by the gallons of water so that I could monitor how much I was drinking. Sometimes it seems excessive, but it is very important :)
I drink a green smoothie almost every day. I make them simple and tasty. Here is my recipe:
1 Cup Fresh Spinach
1 Whole sliced Green Apple
1 Whole Pear
1 handful green grapes
about half a cup of water
*Adding ice could be good, but I like them cool not icy.
I blend and drink right away :)
Sleeping is always a great healthy way to rejuvenate and regroup mentally, physically and emotionally. I am still working on getting enough sleep every night!
Have a great day :)
I highly recommend a prenatal vitamin every day with food. Along with my prenatal vitamin I take a 400mg pill of Folic Acid. Last time I had my levels checked they said I had a superb amount to conceive and carry a baby, so that is why I am so keen on Folic Acid. Folic Acid is also extremely important for the babies growth and development and something so simple can prevent issues such as Spinabifida.
Royal Jelly is my new friend in a jar. Pictured below Royal Jelly is basically what the queen bee eats and uses to create thousands of healthy eggs every day. It is a superfood complex and in my research seems to be beneficial in the pre stages of IVF and or conception. I take one teaspoon every day followed by a big glass of water( it tastes awful to me).
Drinking plenty of water is critical for anyone on any given day. Drinking water is a natural cleanser and also very important during the stimming stage and beyond with IVF. You should drink at least half your body weight in ounces every day. While I was going through our first IVF I would by the gallons of water so that I could monitor how much I was drinking. Sometimes it seems excessive, but it is very important :)
I drink a green smoothie almost every day. I make them simple and tasty. Here is my recipe:
1 Cup Fresh Spinach
1 Whole sliced Green Apple
1 Whole Pear
1 handful green grapes
about half a cup of water
*Adding ice could be good, but I like them cool not icy.
I blend and drink right away :)
Sleeping is always a great healthy way to rejuvenate and regroup mentally, physically and emotionally. I am still working on getting enough sleep every night!
Have a great day :)
Thursday, November 7, 2013
New Beginnings
Sometimes we have to get up, dust ourselves off and try again. In our case we have had to maybe 5 or 6 times. I mean it has to work at some point right? We will be able to have our own miracle and put this some what behind us. At this point I know that the hurt and sadness may lessen but I don't believe it will ever just disappear when we do finally have our babies. The devastation and emptiness that we and I'm sure other infertile couples feel is something that I believe becomes a part of us, part of our story in life.
I literally could not even open up my blog for months after our last disappointment. I wrote the post about it failing and then hid under my comforter for awhile. Not only is the IVF failure so upsetting but it is also embarrassing. I am sure I am not alone in saying that as a women you ask yourself " what the heck is wrong with my body? why did this not work? how am I supposed to keep trying?" Among several other questions.
As a I think back and reflect I have felt several emotions, anger at myself and the doctor( I will get into that later), sadness of course, confusion, exhaustion, fear and like comfort eating for at least a month( which I did- chocolate cake galore).
Anger at the doctor stemmed from the fact that I ovulated several of my lovely eggs prior to retrieval. How could I be in that less than 1% of women who ovulate when they are on several powerful drugs to prevent such an occurrence? Seriously? I told the nurse that I had a feeling I was ovulating and that I should trigger 2 days prior to when I ended up triggering. I know my body and I knew what I was feeling...but I digress. He kept putting it off so I not only ovulated but also he only retrieved 14 eggs. To some 14 is an outstanding number and I get that completely. In my case I had over 30 follicles and I needed just as many eggs because of the issue and genetic testing that would weed all but 1 embryo out. Yes, only 1 embryo out of the 10 biopsied came back normal. How disheartening is that? One sweet little girl, our little fighter made it, but then some how the whole thing failed in the end.
I know that like many women dealing with infertility the biggest question we ask is "why?". Though we may never get the answer we continue to ask it regularly.
I believe that I am able to write this post and open up about all of this because just yesterday I had a surge of hope and excitement about our situation. Rogers insurance goes into affect next week and we will have 6 IVF's covered completely! I called a new doctor and had a phone consult about the process and what we needed to do to prepare etc. My new doctor will be Dr. Randy Morris, apparently he is top 10 in the nation. Thank God for such good news. I will most likely be starting a cycle late December!!!!
I have started taking Royal Jelly which is supposed to be great for egg quality and quantity along with taking my folic acid, prenatals and eating lots and lots of spinach! If nothing else I feel healthy and vibrant from all of the vitamins!
Keep reading for updates and follow me on my second journey through IVF and PGD.
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Transfer and Sadness
I write this with such a broken heart. Our PGD results came back that 1 of 10 was normal. We were ecstatic that at least one was normal. My transfer was set for last Thursday at 2:30 right after we got the results. We found out that she was a little girl and that she was an excellent hatching blast. The doctors and nurse were excited for us with how promising she looked.
After the transfer we went to a hotel so I could just lay out for 24 hours straight. Roger was so sweet and made sure I had plenty to eat :)
The following few days I started noticing symptoms above and beyond the Progesterone symptoms. However on Tuesday I woke up and felt different. I was 5dp6dt and decided to take a pregnancy test. It came back negative. I immediately began googling and discovered it was to early in many cases for the test to show positive. The next morning ( this past Wednesday) was my first beta at 6dp5dt. I woke up and took another test, still negative. I felt in shock and so angry. I did not give up hope though believing that this was going to work.
On Thursday July 4th our 5th wedding anniversary I got a call from Mary, my nurse. She said my first beta came back extremely low( meaning my HCG was not even registering). We cried all afternoon but continued to hope that Fridays would show some HCG and all would be okay.
We are not uneducated to the reality of pregnancies, HCG or miscarriages, we have gone through this so many times before. This however hurt and continues to sit in my heart. On Friday July 5th Mary called me late afternoon and said the HCG had dropped lower and that the IVF had failed. Everything we went through to this point, all the waiting and praying and begging, the miracle baby girl, it all had failed. I don't even know how to move on at this point, or what to do next, I feel stuck in this process and so emotionally wrapped up in the past month and really the past 3+ years of sadness and waiting.
I just hope that my blog title comes true for us soon, I am exhausted and so broken right now.
After the transfer we went to a hotel so I could just lay out for 24 hours straight. Roger was so sweet and made sure I had plenty to eat :)
The following few days I started noticing symptoms above and beyond the Progesterone symptoms. However on Tuesday I woke up and felt different. I was 5dp6dt and decided to take a pregnancy test. It came back negative. I immediately began googling and discovered it was to early in many cases for the test to show positive. The next morning ( this past Wednesday) was my first beta at 6dp5dt. I woke up and took another test, still negative. I felt in shock and so angry. I did not give up hope though believing that this was going to work.
On Thursday July 4th our 5th wedding anniversary I got a call from Mary, my nurse. She said my first beta came back extremely low( meaning my HCG was not even registering). We cried all afternoon but continued to hope that Fridays would show some HCG and all would be okay.
We are not uneducated to the reality of pregnancies, HCG or miscarriages, we have gone through this so many times before. This however hurt and continues to sit in my heart. On Friday July 5th Mary called me late afternoon and said the HCG had dropped lower and that the IVF had failed. Everything we went through to this point, all the waiting and praying and begging, the miracle baby girl, it all had failed. I don't even know how to move on at this point, or what to do next, I feel stuck in this process and so emotionally wrapped up in the past month and really the past 3+ years of sadness and waiting.
I just hope that my blog title comes true for us soon, I am exhausted and so broken right now.
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